Tuesday, December 27, 2005
breaking all the rules...
So far, i have kept my promise to myself that I would not humiliate my friends on this blog if they ever pissed me off. And so, I have been able to control that urge of slamming that person online because it's always the same person. As far as respect goes, this is my way is showing respect to you as a human being if u are so intent on throwing away friendship.
However, even I have limits to my patience. And believe you me, I'm actually a fire-cracker. If you have ever seen me quarrel with my mother who is also a fire-cracker (and that can be quite frequent..opps), you'd think before tread on my toes. But i rarely quarrel with my friends. This may sound hypocritical but tell me, there are many aspect of you and reasons why you act the way you do in front of different people so everyone is actually a hypocrite because most of us want to be politically correct.
And though I don't want to name the person, i think those closer to me would probably know who I'm referring to. Actually I wanted to break down his blog post into tiny little bits by my OVERWHELMINGLY SUPERIOR sense of justice and logic. But then, I decided that that would give him too much satisfaction that I actually bothered to do so. So I'll just give you some general advice my 'friend'.
First and foremost, your apparently GLEEFUL proclamation about your self-centeredness seem to be your trump card explanation for all the f-up things that you have done. "I am what I am, if you are my friend than you should accept me for what I am." Really....did I mention that I love to take you things without permission and use them until they are just about to spoil before returning it to you and say something like, "actually they are not as good as the ones I have." OH..by the way, you can't strangle me cuz you should know me by now that I'm like that so why are you angry??? In fact, I'm angry that you DUN UNDERSTAND ME AT ALL! Why is life so miserable!!!! WOE IS ME!!!
OKie..I can't help myself....this is turning out to be a parody...wahahaha...maybe I'm a bitch as you said but honey, you only made me laugh.
Okie....you can scold me whatever vulgarities you want but thye won't have any effect because these are just words to me...They do not mean a thing to me because I won't let them.
Wise words: "No one can hurt you unless you give them permission."
These words only hurt you because they came from you. These are words of anger...your anger...not mine. So in the end, "if you dwell on that anger, it will become ingrained".
You have alot of issues that you need to settle before you are presentable to the world so go do some soul-searching and reflect on your behaviour. YOu may want to cry pot calling the kettle black but seriously, no matter which is blacker, there is no denying that the kettle is indeed black. Think before you act, not about yourself but others. If you are unwilling to put other people's happiness before yours, then think about the basic human respect and who you are. Your behaviour reflects your upbringing so unless you are willing to implicate your parents, please grow up.
Lastly, you may not realise it yet or maybe you just oh-so-conveniently forget that the frens you are slamming in your blog are the same people that did not forsake you during your shitty pmsy period and horribly immature treatment. THe same people that you now accuse to be hypocrites for sticking around you even though you know they hate your guts. But seriously, before bandying 'hypocrites' in our faces, don't tell me your 'straight As' brain can't comprehend another reason why we are still around you. Trust me, it's not the personality. Well, at least not the present personality. Why, u ask. I ask, are you really that dense? IT BECAUSE YOU DID NOT USE TO ACT TO FREAKING F-UP LAST TIME AND SO WE DECIDED TO GIVE YOU A CHANCE BASED ON OUR ALMOST DECADE LONG FRIENDSHIP!! And the fact that we are willing to compromise our pride to welcome you back into the group despite your behaviour is not a sign of weakness...we want things to be peaceful. And if that means giving more than taking, so be it. But don't go overboard.
I really hope that you can see the light and cast my words to the wind. After awhile, people will just give up. And my 'friend', I afraid that u are very close to it.
11:38 PM