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I'm so emotionally tired....in just a few hours from 8am to 1pm i have been on an emotional rollar coaster.

Met with Prof Ip in the morning at 10a.m and during the one hour i had a very enriching talk with him about my project and my future prospects. Left his office feeling super pumped with adrenalin and raring to go...I really really want to make it.

I was excited and scared for my results...no matter how much i pray, deep in my heart i know the results already.

I know i will do very well for UROPS but i screwed up my experimental module...a B...OMG...the first. crap...I knew i should have missed the dinner with Prof Ip and stayed at home to study but that not just it. I just totally hated that module. I'm not some stupid memory machine. Lab sessions was ok but the ca1 was screwed up and it totally affected my grade......SHIT SHIT SHIT.

My cap dropped again. Sigh...even getting an A+ for my UROPS research project doesnt make me feel better. Because, my Prof said that it would have been better if I filed for an 8 MC one instead of a 4 MC...then maybe my CAP would be in better shape.

Before I checked my results, i was so pumped and scared, my hand was trembling nonstop like i was afflicted with Parkinson or something. Seriously, and my heart was pumping so fast not just because of the result but because all what my Prof had said...I really need to pull my CAP up...I'm so close to getting a scholarship to prestigious Unis in US or the UK. I really really want this...so much that you'd believe what I'd give up for this.

But I'm not totally crushed. If according to what my Prof had advised, I still have a chance at this. I can do this. I want to....