Saturday, October 29, 2005
what can i say...
In the past 2 weeks, I been both Bad...and REALLY good. It's probably hormones but 2 guys got my ice bitch treatment. Whoops...
The first was Demin and second...let's just call him 'badmintonfreak' or B for short. In Demin's case, I think he's really an innocent bystander cuz he din do anything to piss me off or whatever. It's just that I din feel like talking to him for certain reason that I'm not gonna tell but if u ask nicely I'll consider. Anyway, we clicked well but it's STRICTLY platonic. Just that, I felt like distancing myself...At first, I thought that it wouldn't be too noticible but it was only later that I realised how OBVIOUS it was. He msg me on MSN and asked if I was okay. Then I replied, "yeah." Then he said, "Good, because during the trip (erm...it was to ecology fieldtrip to malaysia) you seemed so...cold."
COLD...
I've not been described that for a very long time but suddenly I just felt really bad when I saw what he wrote. Then I just gave the ubiquitous excuse...the NEVER-FAIL crap about how it was probably PMS or something. And the thing was, actually I I was THAT bad to him cuz I helped prepared a sandwich (actually if u want the truth, my mom did) for the trip cuz it'll be hard to get food where we were going. Of cuz, since he lived in a hostel, food will be a problem especially when we are supposed to be assembled in NUS by 6.30 A.M! So, actually, I think I'm quite nice. OH OH and who was the one who called him and as fate would have it, he SOMEHOW managed to oversleep even with 3 alarm clocks (so he claims). Hai...in case if you were wondering, he managed to make it to the meeting point on time. Frankly, I'm really curious how he did that cuz it's nothing short of a miracle.
One might say that I'm quite nice. (read JapTeach blog to understand this one)
So, I blow hot and cold but I'm only human!! Okieokie, i'll drop the ice bitch act and spare the poor boy.
As for badmintonfreak, NO WAY am I apologising for my attitude. First of, this guy just joined the spider lab for his hols attachment. He's from...sigh....malaysia (why why why am I surrounded by them...not that it's such a bad thing but it's like huh...again??). First impression, nice guy, intelligent, eager to make friends and outgoing. So far so good rite? I even had a conversation on life and death as well as the nature of knowledge with this guy within like a few hours of knowing him. Anyway, I can be very friendly and I guess it's also cuz he's in a foreign country and I was just trying to be hospital.
I know that it's probably really boring in the lab especially when 1)you can't start your project since the prof's not in and when 2)you're in a foreign country without friends (but at least you have some family here that you're staying with...then again 3) it's a drag travelling from seng kang to nus) and 4) suddenly you need multiply everything u spend by 2.
Yes, I feel for you. I really do and that's why I try to be nice. But that DOES not give you the right to keep HOVERING around 1 feet of me whenever I'm in the lab. If I talk to much to you, it'll only encourage you. I need space to do stuff like..FEED my spiders in an already SUPER cramp room?!?!?! Scenario: me n victor standing near the strip of space (maybe 1/2m wide?) struggling to balance our trays on a miserable strip of desk clutted with stuff. We need to walk back and forth to the CO2 tank and this desk to feed our spiders and Demin and Liana were also queueing to feed theirs soon. Meaning, we need to work fast. But B just doesn't get it. I know it's FASCINATING watch us feed the spiders and frankly I dun mind ppl watching but HAVE the F**** common sense to make yourself scarce and NOT block the aisle. This place is cramp enough with 2 people. we don't need a third.
Okie that may seem harsh but trust me, it's accumulated angst. Also, what really gets on my nerve is the badminton thing. Liana and I were discussing how cool it would be if we could organise a lab badminton session and well, the lab ppl were quite enthusiatic about it really. Anyway, B got wind of it and he was really excited (that in itself is okay with me really). But the thing is ALMOST everytime I'm in the lab he practically HOUNDS me on WHEN the badminton session will be. There is only so much I can take in the face of approaching deadlines and exams.
Save me.
Anyway, I think I made my sentiments quite clear. Although I'm not openly rude or anything, my answers are short and perfunctory. You can feel the chill. Esp when you know that I'm mostly this smiley person therefore when I enter ice bitch mode, the difference is glaring.
I'm not opposed to talking to him...it's just that you've got to know that I come to the lab to do work and not just to chat with you. Chatting for a while like 5 mins is okay but not when you continue on and on and on and on and on and on.....
Yeah...so that's why I'm bad.
Why I'm good? Just ask weiqi, wendy, peiya and xyz. I think xyz might blog on that pretty soon. ahha
yeah...I rock.
8:00 PM