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Hehheh....actually, it's already 2.05pm so what am i doing here blogging when I'm supposed to be in css for choir at 2.30pm?

well...choir's finally started but i just feel so out of it. Seriously, I'm considering quiting choir soon or at least stepping down from my committee post. I have had enough of fiddling with account that don't match up. I'm so glad i'm in Life Science cuz I think accounting would have killed me. For one who uses money so much, I have notoriously bad sense regarding moolah. Hated being class treasurer, or collecting money. I dun mind giving out money but...urgh can't stand chasing people for money. Ask you to pay can more zi dong anot??!!?

But still, I'm not sure if i want to quit choir. I definitely need the extra time for myself but then again, I would be giving up alot...being with friends and just socialising. As it is, I can feel myself being more and more introverted by the day. That's didn't used to be me at all...but I can't help be feel safer and more comfortable at home. Then again....Liyan and some other friends told me that now they understand why i dun like to go...ahah cuz if they had my 'apartment', they wouldn't go out too. hehheh....the yucky bus transport is also a big deciding factor.

Yeap. So whenever i decide to go out, that person better feel very honoured hor.

Ciao....see you guys soon...think i'll be quite late...aha





actually...just thought that this pic looks super scrumpfulicious...*yumyum* 





Nice sky courtesy of John 





A shot from my balcony...gloomy skies...when i see this picture, i feel a sense of foreboding. So much has changed in this landscape. The once untidy attap houses that populated the flat green field is long gone...Those flats...They will be gone soon. Welcome to the Dead Town. 





One of yours truly...love my pose =P 





Clearer shot of humble pyramid!!~ 





Besides serving to warm our feets, the floor was great for drying our clothes! Really!!...I swear to you that my undies were stiff the next day...like kena pressed by iron. 





First hotel we stayed. At the Winter Sonata resort. The best stay of the trip. floors were heated....CooooZZzyYYY!!! 





my own humble rock pyramid. So cute rite? Well, I guess my pyramid wasn't big enough cuz my wish did not come true. =( 





I like this shot. It looks so serene...This structure was made long ago by people who believed that the larger the pyramid of rocks they built, the greater the chance that their wishes would come true.. 





Artistic shot ne?? 





Finally, after endless meals of steamboats and boiled everything, I finally had something I could really tuck into. Cabbage and meat. Sigh. 





This is the first picture from my KOREA series (2004 Dec) Trip with Family and Relatives. First meal I ever had in Korea. Udon like noodles...really healthy looking. The metal chopsticks were a pain to use. 




Yo people,

So sorry for disappearing suddenly like that =) I didn't know my blog was so read by my frens till something like this happened.

Random friends: Eh, you very long never update blog hor?"

Yi Lin: Err...aiyah...tired mah...I was sick leh....hehheh..then lazy.

WHoopSs....

Anyway, I truly was down with the flu for about two week, no thanks to some stupid China guy with no decent lab etiquette, who keeps burping and sneezing all around the lab like nobody's business. I guess I should thank my lucky stars that whatever gas he had didn't come out from where the sun doesn't shine too, rite? This just shows how miserable my life is when i start considering myself lucky for blessings like this.

I hope he has a twin brother, so that they can be locked up together (key thrown away!) in a tiny box where they can annoy each other like crazy. And then, maybe I'll consider forgiving him...NOT. Not to sound petty, but this guy stole my cake that my lab people left me and told him specifically that it was mine! Granted, i'm not that crazy about cake but what about the principle of it all!?!?!? Hope he had a bad bad bad case of DIARRHOEA!!!!!!!!

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Anyway, if you'd seen me online these past few days, you'd noticed that I'm a : HAPPENING PARTY GAL...aahhahah..

Fri-Sat wee wee hrs: WeiTzer's 21st...stupid guy got anyway easy. If his relatives weren't around, he'd be doing a merlion sooner than you can say 'Vodka Coke'. Anyway, KTV til 3 a.m. I was dying by the time i got home. Weiqi stayed over...hai...dun know why so energetic, somemore can watch movie on my laptop. Was soon in La-la land.

Sat: 9 am woke up . Weiqi left for NTU FYP meeting with tutor. Time to burn till Wendy's chalet which supposedly started on Fri.

12p.m Hmmm, Weiqi should be calling me soon to meet up soon.

1p.m. Yay...take your time...damn sleepy now......dying.

3p.m Hrm....are we going to Wendy's place?? Argh....tired tired....dun wan....sniff sniff

3. 15p.m YES YES YES. I'm so lucky! Parents gave lift halfway since they were on way out!!

Ooooo...I played pool again...haha so happy i improved. Ruhui...u my idol...WAh...jump shot leh!!!~ So sae!!

Raymond...wah....huiwei teach you to play leh...hehheh....din know u so kuai kuai one. =P

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Okie.....Monday 20th June: HAD MY FIRST JAPANESE LESSON!! So cool! So fun!! Ahhhhh.....!!!

Hahaha...can't wait for tomorrow's lesson. Another plus plus point: The School is smack in Orchard...at SHAW!! Woohoo...means: Shopping spree then off to lessons!!

Ahaha.



Anyway, since I'm such a nice person, let me teach you some Jap:

Hajimemashite. Watashi wa Yi Lin desu.
Doozo yoroshiku.
Watashi wa Shingapooru jin desu. Anata mo Shingapooru jin desu ka?

(How do you do? I'm Yi Lin.
Nice to meet you.
I'm Singaporean. Are you Singaporean too?)

Wahaha....

NITEZZzzxxxx




Actually, this post was written on the 11th of June but thanks to QQ and that long looonnng msn chat, i never really got around to posting it til now...Enjoy~

I dreamt of my grandfather the day before yesterday. The PM was also inside my dream...dun ask me why but it was really weird. Some things aren't meant to be typed out for the sake of my safety... Ha ha...we all know what happened with the PSC scholar.

But I just realised how long it has been since I lost him. I will never forget that day, the day that I should never have left home. I knew something was wrong with my grandfather but yet I refused to believe that he would just die and just went about my day. That day, I phoned home after my Maths lecture in NJC and as I was walking out of the LT5 with my then boyfriend, Jeremy, I received the bad news. It was so surreal. I now look back upon that day with an out-of-body kind of experience. I see myself in the middle of the grassy patch behind Lt5 with Jeremy beside me and tons of people streaming out of the lecture theatre to the various destinations. The moment I heard my mother's tearful voice say "Koong Koong died.", I was paralysed...unable to take another step forward...then I broke down.

I was so frail then. If not for Jeremy, my friends and classmates who tried to console me and even got a cab for me, I wouldn't know what to do. Throughout the ride home, I kept crying and i think the cabbie could guess what happened. Although Jeremy had given the driver some money, it was kinda insufficient but the cabbie just said it was alright. Already, there were people slowly arriving at my house to pay their last respects and help with the funeral.

I miss him so.
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Last night, I had two seperate weird dreams. The first had Gollum (actually, I did not see him exactly but his name kept popping up)...and would you believe...ONG TAI TAI????!?!?! For those from css, i doubt you'd need any prompting to remember her...and her lion king hairstyle.

Okay, my first dream went something like this. I was in this big hotel...nothing fancy really, just the basic white walls and cream carpeting. The lights overhead were kinda dim and somehow, I just knew to be afraid. There was this nondescript uniformed man who seemed to be an undercover policeman or something, investigating a sudden series of disappearances in the hotel. The policeman was warning me in hushed tones that Gollum was on the third floor hiding (we were on the 2nd) and below were the students. Forget about that scrawny creature from LOTR cuz my 'Gollum' (tho' i never even got to see it...er..him) was probably a close cousin of that troll from the Billy Goat (Ladybird collection). In case, you have not heard about this story, you have my deepest condolences regarding your sad sad childhood...anyway, 'Gollum' here wants to eat human instead of lambchops.

Somehow, I get wind that people have been disappearing after going up to the 3rd floor and my gut told me that they were probably long dead. As usual in dreams like this, I somehow seem to be the only one who knows the true danger that lies around us. Sigh, this is when i really think that ignorance is bliss. At least, if i do get pounced upon suddenly, I'd get a quick death and it'll all be over. But no!! I have to constantly plot my escape and have my heart beat as fast as a timid rabbit.

Stupid Yi Lin...it's not enough that her dreams give her a major brain workout in plotting a nice escape, it also has to provide a moral dilemma! Hah! How so? Well, Ong Tai Tai appears in the dream leading a bunch of students up to the 3rd floor. They were suspiciously quiet, as if they knew there was probably something sinister somewhere in the hotel and Ong Tai Tai, I guess was supposed to lead them to safety. Yeah right...to the 3rd floor.

Anyway, a horrible thought came over me. The survival of the fittest. I was scared half to death by what lurked in the 3rd floor and just wanted to badly to get out of the hotel. And I had a very good chance of surviving...provided i kept my mouth shut and allowed the fool-hardy group to court death. The man-eating cannibal would then be to busy feasting to bother with me and then I would be able to escape undetected. But, that was just so wrong. Much as I wanted to live, I did not want it to be on account of using those people as sacrifices.

So I called out as loudly as i dared to Ong Tai Tai, " No! Don't go that way!"

But it still bothered me, that I would consider compromising my morals for pure survival. Am I to blame?





This was taken on the plane during the flight back from Japan to Singapore..Really loved the colours...But you should have seen it for yourself...it was really spectacular. 




Finally, I feel so much better, even though it's slightly past 1 a.m. It's like this big load of my shoulder. Since I having gotten my results, my mood has been rather tense. It's not like I wanna kill myself or lay down and die unlike what my msn nick implies. Sorry people, you're not getting rid of me so easily. The thing that was bugging me was, so now where do i go from here?

Should I do another UROPS project? I know that I desperately need publications and i really pray to God that my climbing perch project would faster get published but according to my Prof that'll probably that about a year to settle. He told me on Wednesday that he was going to try for Nature! Oh my goodness! That is like the Holy Grail for scientists! Me, in NATURE??? Slim chance but still...*hopehope*

Anyway, my plans to continue working in Prof Ip's lab during the hols seem to be in jeopardy due to certain unforseen circumstances...like the inclusion of 8 new students in an already stiflingly small lab. I am not kidding you! There is barely enough room to work about without bumping into each other...how in the world am i supposed to work?
Sigh...and i still have some brain samples left to process...crap. Lucky for Cheryl and I, Mdm has told the new students not to go to the lab tomorrow due to a safety check. This means that we both can finally work in peace. Woohoo!

Thank heavens for Cheryl, I just got off the phone with her and its mainly because of our conversation that i finally quit procrastinating and started emailing profs...basically am begging them to be my supervisors...Haha amongst them is my UROPS examiner from last sem. Ulterior motive***chummychummy...moshmosh***

Anyway, feel so much better because I have finally taken some action about this matter. Yippee...

Sigh..procrastinating is becoming a habit with me more and more...ever since I entered Uni.
Wonder why. I have a theory though. I think is adapted from my bro Junhong's brand of philosophy: If you don't think about it, it doesn't exist.

Yup, so basically, I embrace escapism. SANTUARY!! That said however, nothing beats the zen-like happiness I feel when I finally get around to doing things...like the long awaited and much needed spring-cleaning my closet required. Ahhh...feels so nice to finally throw out stuff that i've been hording for eons.

CRap, I really should get the choir accounts sorted out nice nice soon and start bothering ASN...

Sigh********




I'm so emotionally tired....in just a few hours from 8am to 1pm i have been on an emotional rollar coaster.

Met with Prof Ip in the morning at 10a.m and during the one hour i had a very enriching talk with him about my project and my future prospects. Left his office feeling super pumped with adrenalin and raring to go...I really really want to make it.

I was excited and scared for my results...no matter how much i pray, deep in my heart i know the results already.

I know i will do very well for UROPS but i screwed up my experimental module...a B...OMG...the first. crap...I knew i should have missed the dinner with Prof Ip and stayed at home to study but that not just it. I just totally hated that module. I'm not some stupid memory machine. Lab sessions was ok but the ca1 was screwed up and it totally affected my grade......SHIT SHIT SHIT.

My cap dropped again. Sigh...even getting an A+ for my UROPS research project doesnt make me feel better. Because, my Prof said that it would have been better if I filed for an 8 MC one instead of a 4 MC...then maybe my CAP would be in better shape.

Before I checked my results, i was so pumped and scared, my hand was trembling nonstop like i was afflicted with Parkinson or something. Seriously, and my heart was pumping so fast not just because of the result but because all what my Prof had said...I really need to pull my CAP up...I'm so close to getting a scholarship to prestigious Unis in US or the UK. I really really want this...so much that you'd believe what I'd give up for this.

But I'm not totally crushed. If according to what my Prof had advised, I still have a chance at this. I can do this. I want to....




So happy...time is 12.38a.m. and I just polished off a slice of cheese cake baked by *gasp* John Eng!!

He must be very eng.....*sweatdropz and a tic marrs his brow*

Sorrie....heez, I just couldn't resist the pun.

So sad...no camera to take picture of the cake as my sis hijacked our digi cam on her way to JAPAN...and as I was starving...the cake was soon no more.

Suprisingly nice!! Wah...20 already, and this I think is the first time I ate something made by a guy...cousin edwin not withstanding =). So touchedz!!!

According to Chef Eng, the cheese cake was made with cheese from Greenland leh!! Wow~~ that's like how far away...Actually yesterday, John mentioned over msn that he wanted to pass me some cheese from greenland. I mean, it was already 12 a.m at least and not to mention the fact that I was tired and really,...cheese??!?

So today, I was expecting just a lump of cheese really...haha.

Thank heavens for his *coughcough* great timing...most of the time tho, I wanna strangle John cuz at least 90% of the time we meet is after dark (9pm onwards) and basically through the grills of my gate...the time when all I wanna meet is the sandman. But of cuz, I can't strangle John...my resident vcd/dvd FREE rental distributer. Oh oh...thanks again!! During the sleepover, there was some crisis...me with my gigantic plasma tv..but no suitable shows to watch....disasterous...lucky for us, a phone call did the trick and I got 2 dvds delivered to my doorstep!! Now where can u get service like that?

Unfortunately for him...haha I thought that he gave me an empty case for 'The Jacket' and called him to suan him...the next day when my frens left and i was clearing the room, i spotted that dvd.....OOooppss..it took me 2 days before i got the courage to tell him that. Meanwhile, he searched his house like crazy for that disc as his sister needed it to lend a friend.

Gomen nasai!!

Another short update: I signed up for Japanese language classes!!

On that same day, while meeting the friend whom i was supposed to register jap lessons with, I was approached by this girl ( Orchard mrt, just outside Wisma). Survey radar alert!

After the other bad experience, the question the girl asked me immediately put me on defence mode: How old are you.....(sigh)

Twenty.

Hmm....no widening of eyes...good sign.

"Mtv is looking for new faces....blahblahblah..would you be interested in leaving your name with us?"

*blushblush* Is she serious???

"er..No." Then i just left with my friend.

So anticlimax hor...